“..because human anger does not produce the righteousness that God desires.” -James 1:20
Have you ever gotten so mad that you felt your pulse beating fast, your head was racing, your eyes were welled up with angry tears? (Yes, that is a thing trust me.)
Today I learned that I had been blocked on social media. Now this honest to goodness is no big deal whatsoever and I could not care less now. But the reason I’m sharing this is because it really upset me in the moment. When I found out, I was livid. But why had it bothered me so much? What did I ever do to this person? Do they really not like me enough to the point of blocking me on all social media? These were just a few of the thoughts scrambling around in my mind.
This is a fault in our human nature. Some of you might be like, “Who cares? Get over it, it’s not a big deal.” Ok ok but you cannot tell me there are certain people out there that would hurt your feelings too if you found out you were blocked by them. I might be totally wrong in saying that but there has to be other examples of irrational anger. Because this is a perfect example of an irrational anger. We love to lash out and say a piece of our mind in the moment, but is it really worth it? 9 times out of 10 you will cause more destruction out of an act of expressing your pain and hurt rather than keeping to yourself. You know the best person to express your unsettlement and anger to? God. Simple. I mean but he doesn’t respond right? He doesn’t give you the affirmation you so desperately seek. You want gossip. To talk badly about this person so you can happily move on. No. I’m telling you first hand this doesn’t work!! In the past, I have sat in my car cry screaming to God about my anger, my hurt, my unsettlement. But he listens. He’s really good at that. And sometimes I can feel him respond. Whether that’s a song that comes on the radio, a bible verse that pops into your head, the feeling of not being alone as if someone is sitting next to you and they are nodding at your every word. He is there. He is present in every moment. James 1:20 is just one of the many verses the bible talks about when it comes to our mouth and life and death in the tounge and all that good stuff. Be slow to anger. Don’t yield to it. I am not trying to be Mother Teresa right now, because I’m learning too! I had to resist a sub tweet today! Lol in that moment when I found out that I was blocked, as petty as that is, I immediately wanted to express my anger. Looking back at that moment today, I’m glad I didn’t give in. The Lord is still working on me. And he is so good and faithful even when we are not.